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It's almost hard to believe that I've been online for 12 years now. As miserable as I was a decade ago, I sure do miss those days. Everything fucking sucks ass right now. After several failed suicide attempts I even gave up on that. I really need to find a way to be able to hibernate again. I was able to go 7 years with no communication with the outside. Fuck I didn't see the sun from 2002 till 2004. Good times. So today, I check my email for the 1st time in months. Maybe even over a year. Sure enough, 18,904 emails. Wow. That's after filtering spam. Yes, 18,904 legit emails. I've gone through about 400 emails. The rest will have to wait. So if you've wondered why the fuck I haven't replied to your worthless emails, that's probably why. And I probably still won't reply to you. Fucking pieces of shit. Not you, BAFFERS! The funny thing is checking on my sites only to find that some of them expired. This is what I get for not checking my emails. I had domains expire after 12 years of ownership. 12 FUCKING YEARS!! So I contact the faggots that purchased my domains, and guess what? They want ungodly amounts of money for them. I'm sure they thought they were worth something while I was sending traffic from all my other sites. Let's see how much they're worth now that I cut them off. Faggots. Moving on... I also found out that the building I live in is being sold. Here is the problem with that... the owner of this building has been letting me stay in the basement. I've lived in this basement since 1996. That's 14 years!! I don't know what to do. I have zero credit. Which I guess is better than bad credit. But I am not wanting to move. The basement is not "official living quarters". It's just cinder blocks. I have one light bulb and a single electric socket. Just a 14x10 room. I have a feeling the new owners are going to toss me out. Maybe I can find a way to seal this room up with myself in it. Sure fire way to die. Until next time, Fuckers,
Woke up late today feeling like shit. My neck is stiff as fuck. If you haven't figured it out yet, I am back to my old ways. Stuck in my hole for a place and probably more antisocial than I've ever been. Let's see how long I can go this time. Last time it was from the December of 2003 until May of 2006. Almost 3 years. It was a nightmare leaving my place after so long. The feeling of being more than a 10 feet away from my place was indescribable. Quite the shock. The first couple times I was only out of my house for about 2 minutes before I started to have panic attacks. After a few tried I managed to get out. Then I explored more and more and overcame my fear of leaving the house. Never did overcome my fear of interaction with people. It was quite awkward when people attempted to small talk with me and I simply walked away. For some reason recently I am just back in that original state. I really fucking hate humans and everything outside of these 4 walls. You would think I'm some tattooed up, heavily pierced Goth freak. Not the case I assure you. Anyway, I feel so much better now. I've only been home for 3 days now and I already got me a helper neighbor who will be bringing me food and what not. My last helper moved. That's what originally triggered having to step out of my shell. The hunger pains were more powerful than my determination to avoid the public by any means possible. Hey, at least I'm still online and kickin' after 9 years. Damn. It's really a long time. I've developed many cysts over the years from ingrown hairs while sitting in the same damn chair for 18 to 20 hours a day. Here are some random pictures for today... By the way assholes. I've cleaned up the BAD ASS FORUM! So be sure to go check it out. Because of spam, I've set it up where new members have to be approved manually. I check for new signups once a day, so be patient. Someone offered me $20,000.00 for that domain name. This was back in 2003. I never replied. Even today I wouldn't reply. That's the go-to place for my fellow BAFFERS! Oh... Here are some rock star Cam Girls that have been on a roll over at Cam Bang. Definitely a must see! Well, I'm going to rub one out and then going to bed. Who knows, maybe I won't ever wake up and everything will be better. Until next time, Fuckers,
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